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wow. okay. there's only 4 more days to the big As. And it's been a friggin tough journey. I did think about giving up quite a few times, and I'd end up staring into space hoping that maybe I'll just die on the spot. Yeah. Sorry for being emo, but life's like that. Sigh.

I remember one sunday we were studying at M4M and Sam Chan said this song was his motivation during his prelims. Hahaha. Mann, I'm gonna miss those days. I already miss my S08 and the crazy times we've had in class, and really wish I could turn back time and relive those crazy moments. Sigh.

This ain't the original one by the way. Hahaha.

And oh, I tried, and really, if you manage to stay awake past 3 am, you can't sleep after that. teehee. Macs just started selling breakfast about half an hour ago. heh heh heh. I'm gonna go get fat :P

GOODBYE PEEJAYY. It's been fun. Haha.

POH! Hahaha. I think he almost cried. Cos we were the only ones in class who took a pic with him :P Haiz, he ain't that bad(:

SURESH! Hahaha! Kena taupok by the guys after the pic was taken :P super funny.

Anyways, that was farewell assembly. Didn't have much chance to take pics with the other teachers. And well, there'll be no more formal lessons, and I think I'm gonna miss that. Sigh.

Back to mugging. Just needed a short break. My brain's exploding a bit. And I think I saw someone who looked like Zhi Ning on the bus just now. But I was too tired to focus my eyesight to check if it really was her. hahaha. Haiz, haven't met up with the Fajar gang for so long :(

20 MORE DAYS. 20 MORE DAYS. 20 MORE DAYS. CAN'T WAIT.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY BUM(: you know who you are(:

It's official. 3o DAYS TO THE BIG A'S! The stress is definitely getting to me and I find myself constantly worrying about my results. Well, can't help it. Our class is doing so badly that the principal had to talk to us again. Sigh. She did that before promos the year before as well. Sigh. Haha. But at least I know that I have the capacity to do much better for the A's. But I can only say that for chem and math. Econs is still ehhh. Haha.

The other day during chem, Mr Lee played this song for us. Haha. It's from the Prince of Egypt and he wanted us to know that there CAN be miracles. hahaha. Then I became an example cos I managed to fly from a U at mid years to an E at prelims -.- It was hard work mann, no miracle. Hahaha. Oh wells. Enjoy(:

In the meantime, back to mugging! Farewell assembly's in a week's time, and by then it'll be less than 2 weeks to A's. My eye bags are gonna get worse and I'm gonna be becoming thinner cos I'll be so stressed I don't have any appetite to eat. So if I don't eat, make me. Hahaha. My weight scares me sometimes XP

FOCUS. FOCUS. FOCUS.
and JIA YOU to everyone else out there taking the big A's!
and to the boyfriend who's equally as crazily mugging for his end year papers :P

Oh My GeeGee, what's this world coming to mannz. I got into a mini korean craze, but it's over. Hahaha.

Anywayz, prelim results are back. hoo-ray. *note the excitement* They were bad. But not as bad as for mid-years. But still bad. I'll need to work a lot harder for A's in the next month. I really don't wanna have any regrets after my papers, and I don't wanna have to cry and ask myself why I didn't study harder. So for the next one month, I need to focus. FOCUS. A LEVELS.

PRELIMS ARE OOOOOVERRRRRR~! =DD

Haha, prelims ended Friday afternoon, and the original plan was to go satisfy Jia Min's craving for gore by watching Final Destination in 3D at Iluma with her, but, we got lazy, so Rasyidah, Jia Min and I settled for The Mist instead at Rasyidah's hosue. heh heh. It was scary and gross, though she thought it was so fake and all. Sigh.

For the whole of Saturday, I did absolutely no work. Haha. Unless you consider packing my ultra messy cupboard work. But still, no work done. And it felt great. Hahaha. I watched Penelope, Knowing and Big Time in Little Street later in the night. Haha. Stupid show, but not bad for Singapore's standard. Anyways, felt kinda bad, so I studied today. Cos tmr's gonna be a whole day of fun(: we're finally really gonna watch that stupid show in 3D. I'll most probably chuck the 3D specs aside and cover my eyes half the time. Hahaha. There's no way on earth I'm gonna have blood and heads flying towards me. Hahaha. Yucks.

Sigh. It's less than 50 days to the big A's. Everyone's panicking. I'm scared too. But sigh, everyone has to get pass this hurdle, all the best people! Don't die before it starts! Hahaha, I'm quite scared honestly, cos halfway through prelims I totally lost all motivation to mug, and studying became such a bore and it just killed me. Haha, but thank God I made it past that. So, yay. Jia you my friends(:

Watch this! It's cool!! (:
oh, I think they're all the same guy. Except the dude at the left corner :P

Annoyingly-awesome songs stuck in my head. No good for prelims. Hahaha

Cobra Starship: Good Girls Go Bad

Red Jumpsuit Apparatus: Your Guardian Angel

McFly: Everybody Knows

Muse: Supermassive Black Hole

PRELIMSSS!

04/09/09~Friday
~~GP Paper 1~~
~~GP Paper 2~~

16/09/09~Wednesday
~~Economics Paper 2~~

17/09/09~Thursday
~~Chemistry Paper 3~~

18/09/09~Friday
~~Economics Paper 1~~

22/09/09~Tuesday
~~Mathematics Paper 1~~

23/09/09~Wednesday
~~Physics Paper 1~~
~~Physics Paper 2~~

24/09/09~ Thursday
~~Chemistry Paper 1~~
~~Chemistry Paper 2~~

25/09/09~ Friday
~~Mathematics Paper 2~~

Dreams and nightmares. sigh :( I need proper sleep mann.

Stress is building up. And for some reason, for the whole of last week I felt kinda home-bound so I didn't stay for night study at all >.< Sigh. But at least I got work done at home. The only thing I regretted about being at home was my mom. Sigh. She's not helping much by adding onto the stress I'm already feeling, and it annoys me.

Anyways, yesterday I woke up at 8am thinking that it was Monday, and I took my phone and almost sent a msg to Mr Poh apologizing for oversleeping and wishing him Happy Teacher's Day. Then I realised that everyone was still at home, and found out that it was only Sunday. Hahahaha. Stupid me. Anyways, went to church then ykg and since it was raining and I was still feeling lazy, I didn't go to M4M to mug. Instead I went for lunch with the yaf girls and Joseph. Haha. Fun(:

After I got home I didn't get much work done. Sigh. But I got the much needed rest I've craved for the longest time. Hahaha. Later at night, I watched Snakes on The Plane and Invisible Children. The ending of the latter was kinda sad. The guy committed suicide in the end cos he felt neglected by his girlfriend and life and was getting tiring for him. I almost teared. The other parts were kinda blurry though. Singapore made films are a little too artsy for me. hahaha.

Anyways, back to mugging. My brain almost exploded over physics, but thankfully I understand chem more now than before. Haha. Jia Min once said something like this, and I'm gonna kope it. Haha. I<3physics, so physics, please <3 me back. Hahaha. I sound so bimbotic XP

Smile- Uncle Kracker

This is my new fav song. Haha. It's playing in my head non-stop (:

You're better then the best
I'm lucky just to linger in your light
Cooler then the flip side of my pillow, that's right
Completely unaware
Nothing can compare to where you send me,
Lets me know that it's ok, yeah it's ok
And the moments where my good times start to fade

You make me smile like the sun
Fall out of bed, sing like bird
Dizzy in my head, spin like a record
Crazy on a Sunday night
You make me dance like a fool
Forget how to breathe
Shine like gold, buzz like a bee
Just the thought of you can drive me wild
Ohh, you make me smile

Even when you're gone
Somehow you come along
Just like a flower poking through the sidewalk crack and just like that
You steal away the rain and just like that

You make me smile like the sun
Fall out of bed, sing like bird
Dizzy in my head, spin like a record
Crazy on a Sunday night
You make me dance like a fool
Forget how to breathe
Shine like gold, buzz like a bee
Just the thought of you can drive me wild
Ohh, you make me smile

Don't know how I lived without you
Cause every time that I get around you
I see the best of me inside your eyes
You make me smile
You make me dance like a fool
Forget how to breathe
Shine like gold, buzz like a bee
Just the thought of you can drive me wild

You make me smile like the sun
Fall out of bed, sing like bird
Dizzy in my head, spin like a record
Crazy on a Sunday night
You make me dance like a fool
Forget how to breathe
Shine like gold, buzz like a bee
Just the thought of you can drive me wild
Ohh, you make me smile (: